That's Unfortunate: The Struggle

With my birthday quickly approaching, I did what any girl who is 14 going on 18 would do: shop. Raised in a quite modest household when it comes to apparel, I find myself turning down articles of clothing more and more frequently, not because they aren't adorable (because they so are) but because I have this tiny, pestering voice in the back of my head judging them: "That wouldn't be very flattering... WAY too short... Where would you ever wear that?" I love the idea of spending the rest of my summer days in cute blouses with complementary skirts that would make me the belle of the ball, even if I am at a county fair. Should shopping for the latest trends leave me discouraged and self conscious, or should it excite me and make me full of bliss? Despite the fact that I may not have the most ideal body (with my monstrously long legs for a girl my age and the fact that I am not a stick with less than 10% body fat) it shouldn't be a constant trouble in my life to find the perfect skirt or the shorts that don't fit me like underwear or the extremely well fitting blouse. I shouldn't have to settle for jeans and a t-shirt merely due to the fact that the search of a fashionable yet well fitting outfit is too burdening. I have witnessed some girls in my time who just throw all these factors out of the window and stroll in clothing that is ill fitting and just makes you want to say "Oh My", but sometimes I wish I could be like them, not caring what other people think and wearing whatever I want to wear anyway, but the rest of me is happy to have the mind i have, just because I would rather be remembered because of who I am, not because I was the girl who didn't dress to her body type, or wore skirts that looked good on the rack but when worn your rump sticks out the back without even bending over. For now, I suppose I will just stick with my jeans and occasional jems I find at Marshalls, but I long for the day that the snobby fashion designers that create these looks now will be replaced by practical people who, when they create a new trend, will make it to every body, from the skinny and the round, to the short people and the people who have legs longer than the Empire State Building.